-my pain-

Guys, 2008 wasn't exactly the best year for me, truth of the matter.... got frustrated in varying levels on some aspects of my life. My loved ones passed away... But on the upside, it brought a few "good" people into my life.....- people and friends- that i would like to keep in a small box marked "SPECIAL", under heavy lock and key. Well, thank you for making my life more colorful, more interesting and very much worth living...

but, 2009 had been a life changing year for me.... blessings poured me left and right... i hope this will continue to outgrow for this year..... God is so Good! He gave an obstacle but he will help you lift up your life during the struggle moments of it... and even aid you to shine after the rain poured.....Every little thing has a purpose we may not know now....but surely it'll make us different but definitely stronger than ever!!!

As they say,"In life, you will realize that the people you meet have a purpose... Some were put there to TEST you, some would USE you, some would TEACH you and some would BRING OUT the best in you.... Some may CAUSE YOU PAIN but you'll learn to move on (like i did!). So let go of the people who can't treat you right and hold on to those who love you back and see your worth...." and i hope you'll know very well the person you're with... cause in the end there will have a sudden change and its shocking that you'll feel the pain that they'll give you....very disappointing and unexpected...

**To those people who've been good to me all these years, a BIG THANKS!!!

*****To those who BROKE my HEART and even tried to UNNERVED me, THANKS anyway.... I know, everything happens for a reason and whatever that is... i leave it all up to GOD....

***To those who hated me, or maybe in a way cursed me, THANKS... You made me realized that i'm way too good beyond my imperfections...

*To those whom i got offended in anyway, I'm SORRY

This is me....

LOVE me.....

HATE me....

I'm just being me

As 2010 is fast approaching, i'm sure it looks very promising. And i wish that we all get our fair share the pie of happiness, LOVE and contentment....

TrAnQuiLiTy...

Well, moving on.....
This year, I really said to myself,
Wow, this is life and i'm having fun! Touching the lives of people and showing the way of Christianity is always something worth smiling at the end of the day!..... It is to always say, I live as a Christian and thus proud to be labeled
so!
This coming year is also very crucial to me. I don't want to repeat the mistake of this year, counting the months and waiting till the month's leap. I'm going to have a very big move this year, both spiritual and secular. I have a big faith in a big God. I could also say that the LORD hath blessed me so much that I couldn't ask for more. He had used my life in His own way even if I am not choosing His way. He had granted me favor wherever I go, all because of His mercies and grace. He had opened paths and doors I wouldn't have entered with my stubborn will and frailties. The LORD is truly a loving Guide and a loving God! So, despite the slandering and persecution, who would dare say I'm abandoned, forsaken and maltreated? It is the LORD who fights for me, not for my sake, but for His Name's sake!

O LORD, show forth Your glory; that the heathen may know there is a God! Do you love Jesus? Do you truly love Jesus above all these? Do you love Him? Then follow Him.

-Something to ponder-

....Sometimes, aLL we need in Life is to tell whatever it is that we have inside..... We just need to let it out and then let it go......

....Whatever the consequences-->> we have to be brave enough to stand up with our feelings. No one said Life is easy, but we should not make it a lot harder...... besides, life is too short. So, do what your heart tells you....

---->>> STOP THINKING.....
---->>> STOP WORRYING...

****just keep this in mind:
"You might not Have a SECOND CHANCE--- So, spill it out and embrace the RESULT."

My Catastrophic 2008...but a blessed 2009...

Looking at the last date in the calendar of 2008, really got me thinking.....
the new friends i met...
the old ones that i miss....
People i LOST....
tears shed....
conversations shared.......
all these memories carved in my life, gave something to look back at....
To Learn from....
2008 had been very tragic on my part, especially losing someone very dear is hard to embrace but i know.... My Lolo and my SISTER (Marie Antoinette Yco) are with our Almighty God.....
I learned that LIFE, is actually an Echo..... You'll always get back what you throw...
and i discovered that people show their "true color" in times of trials.... they may be different and i mean ohh so odd especially judging a person without an evidence.... and i thought BLOOD is THICKER than Water...... but then again... BLOOD Stinks than Water!!!!......
I lift all my tribulations and Blessings to God.... and i pray that "Some of my RELATIVES" would come to think that They Are not perfect nor even close to perfect! and money can't buy or compromise EVERYTHING!!!!

I hope this year would be a lot different....
yes, it was... 2009 brought a lot of different but not so tragic scene in my life... as the last quarter of the year approaches, i hope more blessings will come. I have reasons to abhor some of the reactions of people around me when it comes to my personal aspect, yes all have the right to comment but doesn't have the right to put me on fire! I have my own mind to rule me, and has my very own heart to choose who i will love.But, the sad part is....i can't struggle over my parents' i'm afraid to loose them, also doesn't want my love to let go.... I'll hold on til the end and i'm hoping i'll do my part 'til the end. I know assurance is the what you're askin', as they say, "Promises are made to be broken" but i hope i will not. Trust is the key...


In times you're sad about what's going on with your life, just remember one PERMANENT FACT:
Everything Changes, Tomorrow might be different...

This is for ReaL....

-it was fun chasing an illusion. It gave me reason to be happy even if it wasn't real. But any chance surely has to end. I'm just disappointed cause when it end it was left with nothing but a memory of something that never existed....

-being with someone doesn't guarantee happiness... Finding your other half does. It doesnt matter how long you've been alone, how long you've hoped or how long you've waited. There's no such thing as a perfect love story. Heartaches will always be a part of loving. But remember- though not perfect- if that love is meant for you, it will stick with you till the end. No matter how tough it gets, no matter how long....

Far from perfect ---but REAL.

now, im holding not just an illusion.... this is for real... a reality in my pocket that bursts around me and now, it's raining with sparkles on my whole being... though before,i stumbled and fall... now i stood up to prove everyone that they were wrong!!! i really made it through the rain!!! i know GOD really Blessed me....and He gave me someone i wanted the most!.... Amen!

What i know now.....

My blog has been part of my sanity, where I can be myself and express my thoughts. It’s therapy, really, especially for people who loves to write. You just have to get it out, otherwise you’ll explode!

Having a small space on the World Wide Web gives me all the creative freedom I crave for "it’s sharing a part of yourself with the world.”

I just want to divulge a moment of my life where, I sat down in a cushy chair, closed my eyes and got real quiet. The assignment I’d given myself was to let my memories float into my mind of situations I’d change from my growing-up years if I’d known then what I know now. For each memory that surfaced, I hoped to get some learning, some of the memories that flashed didn’t surprised me, but others did --- events I hadn’t thought of a long time.

I can now see that in each of my experiences, I was holding back love, either for myself or someone else. But it’s not about the “mistakes” I made; it’s about learning from them that counts….

Do you know the reason behind why nobody’s perfect?? It’s because of LOVE. We’re all destined to love an imperfect person. Our mission is to fill each other’s emptiness. It’s nice to know the fact that you love someone behind his imperfections. Love hears all things, no one can hinder….. and there’s no perfect reason why you love a certain person…. That’s LOVE……

As the saying goes’ “To love is not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.”

With my heightened awareness, I closed my eyes again, went back to each scene, and changed the endings, using what I know now. I opened my eyes and felt grateful for the learning. I now know that with each new situation I encounter, the most useful ingredient I can add to the mix is LOVE and God is the Chef….

…..”Consider yourselves fortunate when all kinds of trials come your way, for you know that when your faith succeeds in facing such trial, the result is the ability to endure….”

love again.....

-Love isn't about staying with someone bcoz you don't want to hurt or get hurt.... it's about staying because you're happy and there's no place you would rather be.....
And please.....don't ever waste your time on someone who doesn't appreciate you the way you should be appreciated. Don't ever settle for mediocrity, for being just an option for being the one who's just fun to be with, for being the one who's always there desperately waiting, for mere concern or pity or for someone who just likes you just because s/he knows s/he's got the power to break you.... Don't settle because deep down, you know who you are and you know without a doubt that you deserve better if not the BEST.....

... but somewhere between heartaches and waiting comes another chance to be found by someone who can show you that you don't deserve to be just an option, but the ONLY CHOICE....

Love is.....

Let me begin my blog with a subject that we all can relate, which is Love....
Love….a four-letter word that has infinite definitions, unfortunately, nobody can perfectly Define. The meaning of the word is perhaps equally ambiguous for contemporary persons. We often use the term to describe our fondness for a certain thingamajig. Also, in identifying or associating love w/ positive feelings & warm emotions.

Love linked solely to fondness or like for someone or something, surrounds the term w/ a certain self-centeredness, or selfishness. Love limited to good feelings rules out both stability as well as it's persistence in tough times…..

…1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not keep records of wrong; it does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things

This is the kind of love that is self-giving, the "MUST" or should I say fundamental and innate vocation of very human being. We cannot live w/o it we are senseless unless we encounter this love…

Life is unfair….."Love , one of the best things in life that is free"……bt then again, it seems this saying should be rephrased,and shld have add…."but somehow, u don't have a choice to decide what is right and you cant fight for it". What if the one you love has been accused, GuiLty as charged w/o even airing her side. Funny thing is, u weren't able to fight for her, bcoz ur parents said u cant love her bcoz she is a sinner and have so many flaws in life……. Ouch!! That my friends really hurt!…..Fine, we commit mistake. Who doesn't? if there's any pure soul who will tel me straight into my eyes that you don't sin nor make mistakes well…. For me you're as good as GOD! Very conceited on your part….shame on you…. Let me jz tel u dt sins, even if they say have different kinds, whether immoral or not, it's the very same in God's eyes. Iv been a Christian for several years now, and I think accepting God is the best decision ive made... I've been struggling through an awful period of emotional turmoil and spiritual depression---- "a long dark night of the soul" often called 'mid-life crisis'….. I felt I needed more than words from the bible. I needed God Himself to touch me….. People nowadays, forget God in their lives….what is important to them are the material things in this world which is a very disgusting deed on us…..though yes, its practical to decide and choose the way of the world…… I pity those people who honor life as they want it to be bcoz of wealth….all they know is, money makes the world go round….. true, it is. but the fact that u sacrificed everything especially your happiness which is suppose to be free, you just trade it for the money itself just to sacrifice again this painstaking wonder of love of your private life just for your family's will for them to be satisfied by you….. If you love....u must do it unconditionally.......

It may be difficult to comprehend why certain people are loved??? But some intercepts in the way…….

ALas!

I'm a certified blogger, though not on this site but on my social networking accounts i have posted alot of missive coming from the heart and mind. Since it's my first time here, i just wanna impart that my posts and messages are very true....it's based on experience. i have lots of friends and acquaintances, but, can't get through them all the time 24/7 so i'm divulging what i feel through writing and posting it freely so everybody can relate or perhaps make queeries about my post. i welcome comments, suggestions and reccomendations, be it an improvement or critic, it'll help boost my personality. Thank you in advance... So, this is it..... Let the post begin!!!!........